now...!

see ! you say you wanna go to school...

now so good ! got homeworks to do...

and exam coming soon...

haven't do revision yet , haven't finish read the novel , haven't finish writing my novel , haven't finish writing my script , haven't finish many things !!!

but , what can i do ?

nothing !

i just can do the revision for this exam only...

i can't online for these time...

cause i scare i can't control the time that i use to surf internet...

so , just leave my computer away and go to find my Mr. and Mrs. BOOK ! ><

haha...well , time's up....

got to go...i'll be back after my exam...

miss you all...^-^

so boring ! i wanna go to school...><

so boring ahh...

i wanna go to school and study...

if got homework , i think i won't be boring like this...

haiz...

become lazy already...

just because more than 2 days didn't go to school...

not feeling well...stomachache...

don't know why , always feel like getting faint...

well , i didn't go to see a doctor...

maybe its just for a while only...

after a few days will be normal again...

so boring ! haiz...

oh ya , my sister wanna open a family...

if you want to join us , you can tell me...

it would be the best if you are living in SELANGOR...

thank you... =]

is that a frog ?!!

just now back from MUAR...

feel so tired...

yesterday my family and i wento back to our hometown-MUAR...

i sleep at about 10 o'clock...

suddenly , i feel scare and woke up...

my finger so pain...

when i look at my finger , there's nothing on my finger...

but i really feel so pain...

and i saw something...

i think that's an animal...

it can jump !

i feel scare if that is a frog...

i called my mum and told her that i saw something like a frog...

she said : "how could a frog come in through the door with a little space?"

but i told her that i really saw something were jumping just now....

she didn't say anything and continue to sleep...

i'm afraid , but what can i do ?

it was just 3 o'clock in the morning...

then i continue to sleep...

when i woke up , i still feeling afraid...

i checked the place that i saw the "thing"...

i want to know that is that a frog or not...

when i looked at there , nothing at all...

but i really feel pain , i really feel that got something bit me when i'm sleeping...

haiz...well , i hope that i won't meet that "thing" again when i back to muar at the next time...

haiz``

you let me feel afraid...
afraid to believe you anymore...
afraid to be your best friend...
afraid to treat you so good...
afraid to let others know that we are best friend...
CWei , i hope that you will see this...
i take you as my best friend forever...
you had been promise me that you will help me if got someone bully me...
but today , you didn't...
i'm angry and sad too...
i can't believe you anymore...
i just know that now i won't believe you again...
why you must say sorry after the things had been happen ?
why you want to help your friend but don't want to help me ?
why you want to let me can't believe in you anymore ?
why you...
haiz...i'm tired with you already...
i know that AKenn bully me just wanna to play with me only...
but , i feel pain when the ball hit on my face !!!
besides , i feel so angry too !!!
but i didn't cry at THAT TIME...
i just cry after i can't hit the ball on his face too...
haiz...well , i didn't angry with him after i cry...
he say sorry to me for....3 or 4 times...
but i didn't accept it...
now , i accepted already...
i really take AKenn as me best best best friend...
cause he same class with me for a long time...maybe about 4 years already...
haiz...soooooooooo tired !...
AKenn , i forgive you and hope that next time you won't play like that again , ok ?
please , all my best friend...
i don't want to miss you all again , can ?
haiz...

haiz...exam coming soon...

haiz...my exam will coming soon...

my sister so good...just now finished her PMR , now can relax already...

but me...T.T

haven't read any book yet...><

i think this time my result must be so bad...

how come ?

first , cause i didn't read book yet !

second , i also won't read book one !

third , don't have mood to read it !

haiz...

but this time is the final examination of FORM 2...

next year FORM 3 already...

i hope next year i can study at the best class...

well , i know i'm dreaming now... xD

but , it's true...

now i'm in the second class...

next year , will be the FIRST CLASS !!!

i know that i can do it !

just because i believe myself !

so , i will be more hardworking on the subject that i have been get a result of C...

well , i know that it is difficult , but i won't give up easily !

just wait and see...

see my best result of FORM 2 !

that's all...haha ><

I always feel that。am I happy ?

ya...i always feel that am i happy ?

don't think about i'm sad now...

just change another way to view a thing...

i don't know that am i happy now...

cause i still feel tired...

or i still need some times to make myself happy ?

haiz...really so tired...

but what can i do ?

i really don't know...i lost many things in the same time...(except him)

haiz...i really feel that when i will become happy ?

when i will become a people who "keep smiling everyday" ?

haiz...i think you also will know that i'm really tired now right ?

cause i always use "haiz"...

haiz...i'm not just simply write it only...

really so tired...

before that i think about after the things happen between he and me ,

i will feel more happy...

but , i'm wrong !

i still feel tired after that...

haiz...haiz...haiz...

sorry , my friend , cassiopeia...

i think that i will become happier...

but now i'm tired again...

maybe i really need some times to make myself become more happier and won't feel tired again...

haiz...that all...i'm lazy+tired to write all of this already... ><

My english so... xD

I think my english so bad... xD

I have been try to read a english novel...

But I didn't read all of the chapter...

I skip it... haha... xD

So stupid right ?

You must be thinking that how I know what's happen to the story right ?

Actually I don't know what the story talking about... xD

I just know the beginning of the story only...

Haha...

I'm so stupid...

But I love english and I know that my english will become very good in the FUTURE... xD

Don't laugh at me , who knows what will happen to my future ?

So , just enjoy your life...

No need to think so much for your future...(sometimes only think about it la)

HEY! Why I change title already ? xD

I'm really so stupid... =P

k , return to my first topic...

My english...T.T

I swear... Next time I will read all of the chapter of a novel...

But I think I will read it for a long time...

Cause I can't understand all the meaning of the words in each chapter of the novel...

Haiz...MIZUMI help me...T.T (sorry for write your name at here xD)

Haiz...

In a nutshell , I want to say that I really love english...

Although I know my english so bad...xD

But I will try to read many english novel to improve my english level...

Beside , I will speak english to my friend too...(some la ><)

Haha...Thats all for this topic...

My heart。no pain already...

hey hey...
my heart now didn't feel pain already...
thanks , dear xuan...
thanks for always accompany me...
i know we no need to say thanks to each other...
but i still wanna tell you that i feel i need you forever ><
haha....
well , hope we can stay together for a long time ya...
xixi... ^^
and i hope that my best friend won't leave away from me ya...
friendship forever...
now , i'm hardworking in study...
hope to get a best result for myself... =]
God , let me do it although i know i can't... xD
well , that all for today...
no anymore sadness comment...
haha...
have a nice day ya... =]

Its not mine...

The key chain that you give me...
Its not mine...
I think I have to give back to you...
Sorry that I having it for a few time...
Now , I know you will want me to give it back to you...
So , I will return it to you by myself...
I think it should be given to a girl that love you and can giving you the hapiness...
Thats all for us...
FINISHED...END...
I am happy now , so I hope you will be happy too...
I know that you won't read this...maybe la...
But I still hope we are the best friend in the world , ok ? =]

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Having a new blog...
Its a blog for me to post my short novel [散文]...
But that blog is just for special people...
Well , just go to take a look...
If you feel weird , just click the red button on the top of the right...
http://janniewen.blogspot.com/
Thanks ! =]

...

Thank you...
J , thank you for taking me as your friend...
Today I asked you , can accept that my heart got another people or not...
You say you can't accept...
Then I asked you , can you spend more feeling of "like" to let my like become to "love"...
I told you that you will be more tired if you accept it...
Finally , you rejected...
You choose friend...
So , what can I say ?
I just feel that I'm not so tired now...
Feels freely like a bird fly in the sky...
I hope that you can try to find a good girl and be with her...
Maybe you will feels happy when stay with her...
Cause I can't give you any love already...
Lastly , I hope that we can be best friend forever...
Thank you for appears in my life and I won't forget you...
Hope that God will let us know what we want , who will let us become happy...
Friendship forever ! =]

I'm so sorry...

J , accept sorry , I don't know what can I say already...
Please forgive me just like I forgive you betrayed my heart...
I hope that we are still best friend and be best friend forever...
I feel that we can't stay together again...
Because we have been separate many times already...
I know that its my wrong...
But I still feel that we can be the best friend in the world...
Don't you think so ?...
If can , leave some comment here...
I want to know what you feel now...
Its true , I just take you as my brother and best friend only...
And tomorrow I'm getting to tell you all of this by myself...
I can't lie you anymore because I really take you as my best friend...
And I won't lie to my best friend...
So , this is the last time I lie to you...
And the last time I say sorry to you...
Don't you feel that we say sorry to each other many times when we are together ?
It means that we can't stay together already...
Because we always say sorry to each other...
A couple always like this means they can't stay together anymore...
Its a sign for dangerous of the love between the couple...
J , forgive me and be my best friend , can ?
I know that you like her...
So , I will support you...
Because I like a people too...
I can't stay together with you because in your heart got a people inside there...
And in my heart also got a people inside there...
That's all for our love...
Its finish , end !
So , just take me as your best friend , can ?
I don't want to lost a friend , can ?

I'm sorry...

Now I hope that we are best friend...

Can we be the best friend ?
Haiz...
No comment...
Nothing to say already...
Really tired enough to love you...

I'm so tired...

I'm so tired...
It's enough for me to keep this secret...
Now , I want to tell you the secret...
But I still feel scare to tell you this...
Nothing's gonna change for this , for us...
I will tell you the secret , cause I don't want to lie you somemore...
I can't lie you anymore cause I don't want you to be sad...
I also don't want you hate me or what...
So , I will tell you what I feel...
I hope that we still can be friend...
Although a good friend also can...
Just hope that you won't hate me...

Thats all...
For us...
Tomorrow will be the last day for us...
After this , maybe I can't receive you again...
I say 'maybe'...

Sorry for this...
I know that I'm not only the one who have to say SORRY...
You too have to say sorry...
You say many times sorry already...
I'm tired now...
Can't continue...
Just forgive me and let me go...
Let us be free like birds fly in the sky...

SORRY...

I lost my BEST FRIEND !!

I have three best friend that same primary school with me...
We knew each other from standard 4...

Last year , one of my best friend (YCM) study at a secondary school that not same with me...
This year , we didn't keep in touch already...
I'm not the one who don't want her...
She don't want me to be her best friend already...
She got her own new best friend in secondary school...
I'm sad , but what can I do ?...

One of my best friend (LKH) like to sing with me...
We're enjoyable when singging together...
Although we study at the same secondary school , but this year we didn't talk so many...
I didn't talk with her for a long time already...
Maybe two or three months...
I think she got a new best friend already...
That girl is my bf 's last gf...
I don't know lkh will support me or her...
I think she will support her...
Because she don't want me already...
I'm sad , but what can I do ?...

Another best friend (OXM) also same secondary school with me...
But she change school already...
Just because of something happen in her house...
Now , we didn't keep in touch already...
I also don't know where are she now...
I'm sad , but what can I do ?...

Now , I lost my three best friend...
But , I get a new best friend (LJX) already...
She also same primary school with me , but that time I take her as my friend only...
I think that time she also take me as her friend only...
But now , I know she is my best friend already...
I'm happy because God let me know her and let her become my best friend....
Thanks , God... =]